So there's been a bit of radio silence here. I'm fully aware of this. I think I've started and stopped more posts in the last few weeks than in the entire time I've had this blog.
First dilemma: I started this blog as a way to talk about my ministry and keep in touch with supporters. I've had other blogs in the past, mostly used to vent and amuse myself. This one actually has a purpose, but since I haven't kept up with the others and don't remember the passwords, I'm pretty much left with this one. Technically, I'm still with OMS, but I'm not being funded anymore. Does it feel awkward for you? Because it does for me. Of course, I've taken creative license with this blog before, so I don't really feel bad about doing it now. And I'll still talk about what I do now. Probably.
Second dilemma: I'm still trying to wrap my head around my change in status. Things happened very quickly, and I had to mentally move from fundingfundingfunding to nolongerwithOMSwhathappensnow to ihavenoideawhatthisjobentailsbutitsajob over the course of about three days. I was literally packing my desk on Friday and unpacking it on Monday (though in a different place). Now that things have settled a little bit, I find myself wishing I'd had some time off in between to really process things. I'm really noticing the distinct lack of mental processing.
Third dilemma: I'm really noticing the distinct lack of mental processing. I don't talk about it much on here because I suffered from the "Missionaries Must Only Present Positive Attitudes in Public" disease for about three years. Only a few people really knew what was going on in my head. But we're airing it in public now. I suffer from severe depression. To the point where just basic functions take a lot out of me, so doing a blog is not even a blip on my radar. I am working on it. Some days are better than others. This past year has been especially difficult. We'll probably address that more later.
Fourth dilemma: I have very little time to write a blog. I will try to write up some stuff and schedule posts, but I make no promises.
So yes, I know I haven't been around. I'm trying to change that. I'll let you know how it goes.
First dilemma: I started this blog as a way to talk about my ministry and keep in touch with supporters. I've had other blogs in the past, mostly used to vent and amuse myself. This one actually has a purpose, but since I haven't kept up with the others and don't remember the passwords, I'm pretty much left with this one. Technically, I'm still with OMS, but I'm not being funded anymore. Does it feel awkward for you? Because it does for me. Of course, I've taken creative license with this blog before, so I don't really feel bad about doing it now. And I'll still talk about what I do now. Probably.
Second dilemma: I'm still trying to wrap my head around my change in status. Things happened very quickly, and I had to mentally move from fundingfundingfunding to nolongerwithOMSwhathappensnow to ihavenoideawhatthisjobentailsbutitsajob over the course of about three days. I was literally packing my desk on Friday and unpacking it on Monday (though in a different place). Now that things have settled a little bit, I find myself wishing I'd had some time off in between to really process things. I'm really noticing the distinct lack of mental processing.
Third dilemma: I'm really noticing the distinct lack of mental processing. I don't talk about it much on here because I suffered from the "Missionaries Must Only Present Positive Attitudes in Public" disease for about three years. Only a few people really knew what was going on in my head. But we're airing it in public now. I suffer from severe depression. To the point where just basic functions take a lot out of me, so doing a blog is not even a blip on my radar. I am working on it. Some days are better than others. This past year has been especially difficult. We'll probably address that more later.
Fourth dilemma: I have very little time to write a blog. I will try to write up some stuff and schedule posts, but I make no promises.
So yes, I know I haven't been around. I'm trying to change that. I'll let you know how it goes.
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